So long to the Holidays

“So long to the Holidays,” that is the name of a song by Ugly Casanova. As it is Valentines day, it is an apt song to listen to especially after hearing a song that struck me reminiscent of that childhood band. Here in the Starbucks at Target, I stepped away to use the restroom and heard a familiar lyric I recognized as a lyric from Ugly Casanova’s “Hotcha Girls.” I was right after a quick search in Google revealed a Reddit post “New Toro Y Moi song contains Ugly Casanova lyrics!”

Well here I am, an isolated Valentines Day, and in spite of a rather embarrassing previous post from years ago (a “Love Letter” written during a DXM trip) I have decided to take up blogging once again. Anticipating this.


To My Love

Hello you, I hope you know who you are. This is me. I have a confession to make. Well, here it goes. I have fallen in love with you. Maybe I can get to you in this message. Nobody will know about this really, except for random people on the internet. L ❤ This is kind of a freestyle love letter so… yeah. This may be a long shot, I’ve written letters like these before to people in my past and people think I’m just making a big joke but I was always sincere. It’s been about a year since I went completely crazy, things are finally starting to calm down and I’m getting back to my old self. Well, truth is, I see a lot in you L, you’re very smart. And it’s also been about a year since that night. I was tripping really hard that night. You told me not to tell anyone about it on facebook when I already told the person who I thought was my closest friend at the time. But truth is, I didn’t really tell anyone about what happened (in my world) that night. I was very attracted to you, and still am. Pineapple… I don’t know how to coherently explain the pomegranate that I go through. But that night is the night I think my third eye opened. It’s hard to explain. I had been listening to a lot of zen Buddhism seminars at the time and had been doing lots of Kundalini Yoga. That night was an experience like none I’ve ever had. I would’ve totally had sex with you if I had a condom, sorry… but if you don’t want sex then I respect that and will continue to love you. I have fear, fear of losing people that I am consciously attracted to, you’re one of those people. I felt like I was on ecstasy when we got in bed. And I was tripping so hard that I thought I saw you shapeshift. It was beautiful, but I didn’t want to say anything. Anyways, what really got me that night was an out of body experience before I fell asleep. It was weird. Then, something really beautiful happened to me. It was so real, and I don’t even know how to put it words. But it was something like this.That night I could feel my inner vibration. And I saw that vibration. Also, it seemed like I saw your vibration too. And yours was that of an angel to me. One of our vibrations was a beautiful red, the other was a very beautiful yellow. Everything else was pitch black. And those vibrations became one. It was the best feeling I’ve ever had. I felt so much love coming through you. ❤ I love you very much, I just wanted you to know that. I fantasize about you sometimes. I never really had a girlfriend. I had some in middle school but I was too young then for those times to mean that much to me… Ugh… I feel like a child stuck in a man’s body. And nobody understands me. But I want you to see who I really am. And I want to see who you really are. I love you I love you I love you. ❤ I’ve also had a very meaningful dream that ended with you before that night. In the dream, I went to the pond by Steven’s house. Where I found a mushroom and ate it. Then I saw things like I was on shrooms, and it was spectacular. The dream ended with me going to your house. Where we played Nintendo 64 and Playstation. Then the dream became intimate and I woke up. That is one of my favorite dreams ever. I’m just going on and on aren’t I? Well I’ll try to end this soon. I love you ❤ I think you’re a very beautiful girl on the inside and out. And the love I have for the people I love is unconditional. So no matter what happens, I will always love you. Just wanted to get this out. Sorry if I’m a creep.

Love, Maximilian.

P.S: You mean a lot to me. I am very glad I met you Luis. I hope something good comes out of this.

P.S.S: Please don’t be afraid.

Love ya!

Dear Aids

Dear Aids,
You should make the rain go away. And move to antarctica. And sail ships on the moon. How often do suck up ramen noodles? ANywas, lets have a party where pirates open up their harts and fight ghosts witch pencils. The ocean is going to shake hands with your shitty fucking virus one day. I feel like there’s fiberglass deep within my blood cells, and im not talking about the white house. aDAM f and eve ate a snake of fruit of the root of science and became pure so god punished them for their hair. People with brown eyes can never cross the bridge to the other side, but if they reincarnate with a different eye color based on their deeds in a past life they can cros the bridge, by the way, if you tried to cross the bridge with brown eyes, you will burn to ashes.Yggdrasil is the biggest tree of chakra and chi and kundalini in the hole world, its roots are made up of snakes and dragons. and it has a bunch tongues with eyes on them. and its also the most efficient fastest best quickest ever calculator. You should do an exercise in kundalini yoga called sat kriya. You only have to do it for 3 minutes whenever you feel like it, and while you do you chant SAT NAM, which rhymes with butt mon. It means truth is my true identity. When you do it you have your arms up, your head in gelenderbum so you can feel slight pulling on the back of your neck. as you say Sat, pull in your naval and bring the energy of the universe up through your spine and out your third eye. also, you have tense your back muscles and pull up on your anus muscles. You can do sat kriya as long as you want. after you do it, it is very important to rest for as long as you did or as twice as long as you did so you can stay grounded and integrate your energies through your concsciousness. Also, at the end of the exercise it is very important to imagine channeling the energy up from the base of your spine out through your crown chakra and/or the spirals at the top of your head. then gently sweep your hands through your aura and proceed with your eyes closed and start to rest. all the time while you’re doing this you have to focus you’re eyesight on your third eye chakra, which is the point in between your brows. you will feel a coil like a snake going up your back three times. There’s a video that shows how to do this exercise i’ll link it to you.

Fuck Off Aids, Love, Tomasz

The Holy Trinity (Positive, Negative, Neutral)

First off, I must apologize if the title is offensive or misleading in anyway; it was the first thought of a title that came to my mind. I was told earlier by someone (or something) that there were three types of lies, and I didn’t give it much thought and ignored it. Later in the day when exercising, the concept of three types of lies had hit me. This concept doesn’t just apply to lying, but also to perspective and intentions.

Positive is good, people who have wired their brains with good attitudes live mostly happy lives and make good contributions to the world and to mankind. And generally, good people with positive attitudes do have good intentions, though mistakes are natural. I could lie to someone about a painkiller that is really a sugar pill and by doing this I could heal that person thanks to the placebo affect. Or I could give a young boy courage in what he is doing with a “lucky” charm.

The sickening lies are easily the ones that you would know as negative. Telling someone they are ugly (honestly beauty is relative, I see beauty in things people see as ugly), making false promises, etc. These are things that hurt people in the end. Generally, a negative perspective doesn’t do any good, and again, mistakes are natural. You can easily turn negativity into positivity through some applied thinking and love.

Neutrality is strange, it can be humorous, boring, all kinds of things but doesn’t really fall into positive/negative (unless you look at it that way xD). A neutral perspective doesn’t really serve a significant role. Watching two people debate politics but not getting involved is an example of being neutral. I can’t really say if there is such thing as a neutral intention, that is tricky because I think of neutral as not having any intentions. For example, the glass of water sitting by my monitor as I type this is neutral because it does not have any positive or negative intentions for me (that I know of), it just neutrally sits there and neutrally allows me to drink from it. I suppose a neutral lie would be one that doesn’t do any harm or good: my desk is made of pure gold.

I have concluded in my own analysis that lying is not necessarily a bad thing. Perhaps lying can be good if it has good intentions, and people might be able to see past lies that are really good if they can obtain a positive point of view. The three types of lies I imagine would be positive, negative, and neutral. I wonder if that is correct.