To My Love

Hello you, I hope you know who you are. This is me. I have a confession to make. Well, here it goes. I have fallen in love with you. Maybe I can get to you in this message. Nobody will know about this really, except for random people on the internet. L ❤ This is kind of a freestyle love letter so… yeah. This may be a long shot, I’ve written letters like these before to people in my past and people think I’m just making a big joke but I was always sincere. It’s been about a year since I went completely crazy, things are finally starting to calm down and I’m getting back to my old self. Well, truth is, I see a lot in you L, you’re very smart. And it’s also been about a year since that night. I was tripping really hard that night. You told me not to tell anyone about it on facebook when I already told the person who I thought was my closest friend at the time. But truth is, I didn’t really tell anyone about what happened (in my world) that night. I was very attracted to you, and still am. Pineapple… I don’t know how to coherently explain the pomegranate that I go through. But that night is the night I think my third eye opened. It’s hard to explain. I had been listening to a lot of zen Buddhism seminars at the time and had been doing lots of Kundalini Yoga. That night was an experience like none I’ve ever had. I would’ve totally had sex with you if I had a condom, sorry… but if you don’t want sex then I respect that and will continue to love you. I have fear, fear of losing people that I am consciously attracted to, you’re one of those people. I felt like I was on ecstasy when we got in bed. And I was tripping so hard that I thought I saw you shapeshift. It was beautiful, but I didn’t want to say anything. Anyways, what really got me that night was an out of body experience before I fell asleep. It was weird. Then, something really beautiful happened to me. It was so real, and I don’t even know how to put it words. But it was something like this.That night I could feel my inner vibration. And I saw that vibration. Also, it seemed like I saw your vibration too. And yours was that of an angel to me. One of our vibrations was a beautiful red, the other was a very beautiful yellow. Everything else was pitch black. And those vibrations became one. It was the best feeling I’ve ever had. I felt so much love coming through you. ❤ I love you very much, I just wanted you to know that. I fantasize about you sometimes. I never really had a girlfriend. I had some in middle school but I was too young then for those times to mean that much to me… Ugh… I feel like a child stuck in a man’s body. And nobody understands me. But I want you to see who I really am. And I want to see who you really are. I love you I love you I love you. ❤ I’ve also had a very meaningful dream that ended with you before that night. In the dream, I went to the pond by Steven’s house. Where I found a mushroom and ate it. Then I saw things like I was on shrooms, and it was spectacular. The dream ended with me going to your house. Where we played Nintendo 64 and Playstation. Then the dream became intimate and I woke up. That is one of my favorite dreams ever. I’m just going on and on aren’t I? Well I’ll try to end this soon. I love you ❤ I think you’re a very beautiful girl on the inside and out. And the love I have for the people I love is unconditional. So no matter what happens, I will always love you. Just wanted to get this out. Sorry if I’m a creep.

Love, Maximilian.

P.S: You mean a lot to me. I am very glad I met you Luis. I hope something good comes out of this.

P.S.S: Please don’t be afraid.

Love ya!